RMHH Blogs

That’s from Pete Rock and CL SMooth’s “T.R.O.Y. (They REminisce Over YOu) in case you were wondering. I’ve been sooooo tired lately. And everyone’s been commenting on how I look exhausted. I feel it. I haven’t really been sleeping, my eating habits have been atrocious, and I’ve really just been stressed out of my mine. I need just a small break. Just a small one. But a break nonetheless.

Just some quick shots as I prepare to return to work. THe owner of our property wants to sell. We have first dibs. It’s a big choice but I’m leaning towards yeah.

I’m reminsicing on September 11. I bought this book on the day with prose and poetry by survivors, observers, and lots of other folk. Barnes and Noble had it for like $7. It has still images, everything. I’m still very intrigued by that day. It was just so surreal and so pivotal in the course of history’s greatest events. I wrote an essay on what I felt during my third week working in tv news. I don’t know if it’s online, and the digital copy is on my old Mac. The article appeared in an edition of PhillyWord. There’s another article, a posting I made to my hip-hop newsgroup:

Lewis Parker - Walk In The Sky 1996

Lewis Parker - Visions Of Splendour 1996

Lewis Parker - 101 Pianos (Instrumental) 1998

In the second half of the 90s there was no Hiphop producer in the UK on a level with Lewis Parker. In the last 5 years this has changed, with the emergence of other great UK producers and Lewis’ more recent work lacking the beauty and craftsmanship of his first few releases.

Here we take you back to his first 3 pieces of wax, when people all over the world were just cottoning onto the skills emanating from Canterbury, Kent.

Okay, how ’bout Third Watch is the best show on Friday nights. F’real. I’m so tired and I’m still stressed. There’s just so much going on. And alot of it, I’m not even getting paid for. That’s also part of my stress. I was going to just fill this space with a rhyme. I still might but I have to get my thoughts together. Wait, the series is ending (Third Watch?). Season DVD time.

I really feel burned out. And the funny thing is, I didn’t even realize it was late April until today. All I need to do is hold out for 8 more weeks then I get a mini-vacation at the end of June. But until then…. *sigh*.

Okay, I don’t really NEED a drink. I want one, though. Just one. I don’t want to get drunk or to’ up or anything, I just want one drink. I’m stressed. I don’t want to drink away my pain, I just want something that makes me say “dern” going down. And then, I’ll be good. There’s so much going on and I’m trying to keep it all straight in my mind. Sometimes I feel like any moment I could crack like bloody egg. I need a vacation but can’t really afford to take one. I need a week off of just about everything just so I can get myself together. I’m trying to be everywhere at once and everything to everyone and, as always, it’s wearing on me. But I find it difficult to say no to people I love and care about. So, I keep on pushing.

Career-wise, I’m frustrated. I don’t get enough work to sustain my family but at the same time I don’t hear the Lord telling me to move. In fact, because I’m not getting alot of work, I’m able to be around my Church more and I know that’s where God has me. Still, I’m human and I get frustrated with the low funds, struggling to make ends meet. It’s something I have prayed on but admittedly, I haven’t prayed on it fervently. Maybe, that’s what I’ll do this evening.

The Almighty RSO f. Legion Of Doom - 5 Minutes of Doom (Comin’ From the Legion) 1994

The Almighty RSO f. Cool Gsus, M3, Fuckamon - Quarter Past Nine 1996

Made Men - 3 Stripe Killaz 1999

The recent news of Benzino severing his most obvious ties to The Source give us the opportunity to look at one of the most hated men in hip-hop from a different perspective. Benzino was never - as often falsely reported - a co-founder of the magazine (he hustled his way in when it had become the genre’s leading periodical), but simply a local Boston rapper who had been putting out records since the mid-’80s. Call me naive, but paying dues and helping build a local scene are worth something in my book. Unlike many other people I therefore have a certain amount of respect for the man. Like most observers, however, I think that Benzino’s personal ambitions have ruined what used to be the best hip-hop mag around.

is the City I Live In, the City of Philly…. yeah, I jacked that straight from Mos Def who jacked it from Red Hot Chili Peppers. Man, it’s been a rough week. Nothing particularly terrible has happened, it’s just been rough. I’ve been so exhausted over the past few days. It stems from the weekend. I worked the evenings and I never really caught up on my sleep. And all week long, I haven’t been able to catch up on it and it’s really been wearing me down. Plus I’m totally frustrated at our financial situation. Let’s just say it’s less than spectacular. And I feel like it just shouldn’t be that bad. We’ve been married for almost 3 years now. At first, I blamed it on trying to merge two different lifestyles and two different ways of monitoring money. Now, I think we’re just horrible at it and we need help. Not help in knowing what to do, help in sticking with it. I’m frustrated, I’m tired, I’m distressed and depressed.

I’m praying that God deliver us from this bind and show us what we need to see so as not to get back in it again.